birthday

birthday

Dear Walt, Birthday. You hated your birthday. Not because it marked another year but because of the attention. You would seriously have hated this one with so many people coming to celebrate your life. A life deserving to be celebrated. A life cut too short too soon...
writing icefall

writing icefall

Dear Walt, I miss you. I have to start writing again. For one thing, income. For another, I need to fill my mind with more than missing you and what ifs and second guesses and if onlys. Those don’t do me any good because understanding exactly what happened on...
rebuilding

rebuilding

Dear Walt, I had to take your photo off my phone’s home screen. It’s not as if I’ve forgotten what you look like or ever will. Plus, I have dozens of photos—though not enough videos—so if I ever wonder which of your cheeks had the cutest dimple,...
grief

grief

Dear Walt, Grief is weird. At the moment, I can’t really tell how much of what I’m blowing out of my nose is related to my crying and how much to the cold you left me with. I think I got the worst of it. I remember straddling your thigh while you sat at...
nesting

nesting

Dear Walt, I’ve slept alone now for five nights which actually isn’t that unusual. For the past couple of years, it had been my knees making me restless, or your back keeping you from getting comfortable, or my snoring. Yeah. I admit it. Even if you came...