the end of year two
Dear Walt, I am sick. I woke at 2:30 a.m. with a coughing fit that flattened me and realized I had no one to hear. Both of our older kids were asleep upstairs with theirs. My door was shut. I had one cat and three dogs in the room and they're useless. The coughing...
merry christmas my love
Dear Walt,Last year was officially my first Christmas without you but last year's Christmas was a complete blur coming so soon after December 21st happened. This year I'm feeling your absence.I woke alone as I've been doing for the past 365+ days without...
all the firsts are done
Dear Walt,I've been thinking for weeks now what I wanted to say to you today about what this past year has been like without you. I talk to you daily. I write notes to you daily. Nothing I post. Nothing for the public. Just things I need you to know....
fifteen
Dear Walt, It's been a while since I've written though I talk to you daily, hourly, but I couldn't let today go by because it's been fifteen weeks since December 21st happened and you know how I am about fives. I used to save five dollar bills. And...
eyes
Dear Walt, It's been a while since I've written to you. A couple of weeks at least. I still talk to you every day and I don't imagine that will ever stop. I change out which of your photos I talk to and that's fun, seeing your different expressions, all of...
stress
Dear Walt, I'm having a lot of stress and it's not good for me. I spent a stressful hour yesterday looking for an ENT doc who's close and on my insurance. It was one or the other though I finally narrowed it down so will call Monday for an appointment. My...
pets
Dear Walt, Today I decided to clean off your desk. Now I can't remember if I was looking for something in particular, a receipt perhaps, or if the mess was just getting to me; I hadn't touched it since December 21st happened and it made getting to your...
decisions
Dear Walt, Today marks eight weeks since December 21st happened. They say not to make any major decisions for at least a year after a loss such as what I've suffered. I suppose they mean not selling the house or walking away from the house or burning the...
hearts
Dear Walt, Today is Valentine's Day which to you and I meant nothing. I don't think we ever even wished each other a happy one. I'm quite sure you never brought me flowers. You may have given me candy. It was probably two years ago that you went to...
forward
Dear Walt, I was just doing a search in my Gmail and the last days of our Hangout chats came up. I scrolled through then got to the ? I sent you the morning of December 21st and stopped. I was throwing up in bed and needed help and you hadn't answered when...